Saturday, April 27, 2013

Imagining the death of my father

I have tried to not think about my father's death.  At least once a day I imagine him dying.  I think about him having a heart attack and then being unable to keep himself out of the water in the bathtub and drowning.  It is not the worst way I can imagine dying but it sounds awful.  

I put this post on the shelf for a while and probably was not going to come back to it.  I have posts every so often that are like that.  They start with an idea but then I have nothing more to say about it.  Today I received my fathers death certificate...

The cause of death listed on the death certificate was drowning in the setting of severe hypertension and arteriosclerosis cardiovascular disease.  It is hard to know what I feel about thatWhen I heard what had happened to my father my mind jumped to the worst case scenario which was him having a heart attack and then drowning.  I then come to find out that is exactly how he died and I again it is hard to know what I feel about that.